"So pretentious"
First time I wore these glasses out and family was so surprised that I "looked" different. But nobody knows or understands this journey of getting better–the things my body went through and how different my face looks after everything changed. How my eyes are always puffy, how many eye creams I've tried to de-puff my eyes. But none of it works, of course. How I hate looking at my side profile now because of my bulging eyes. So these glasses were a decoy, a distraction, they're not pretentious, they help me feel better about myself for just a few hours.
How the hair just falls because the meds were just 50g out of whack.
But I will only know six months later when my body starts to regenerate whatever the trauma left behind.
So, no, I'm not being pretentious, I'm catching the curveballs, I'm dealing with the punches, just so I can feel a little more confident about myself.
